在QQ空间的日记里我用泪水代替了墨水写下了与那临终前夕的男友分手的故事每一个字都像是割裂的心脏每一笔
我不否认,我就是到你这里来晒幸福的。要我说,幸福就得晒,你不晒,别人还以为我很委屈很可怜没人要呢!如今我有陶伟在身边,我当然很希望让我的前男友知道。
据我所知,他也有女朋友了,但还没到结婚那一步,也许这辈子他都不会到结婚那一步了。他就是那种人,包括他们家里人,总指望着通过婚姻大赚这么一笔,就好像全天下的女孩子都排着队要嫁他一样。我跟他认识之前,从来不知道我家没钱,我家太穷。反倒是跟他认识之后,处处感觉到他及他的家人对我父母的不满。
总是举例说谁谁谁家就找了一个富豪女友,老丈人把他们的婚车、婚房都包了之类。其实他家也没钱,但他爸妈觉得自己的儿子就是钱,外面那么多有钱的剩女,随便找个谁不能让他儿子一夜致富呢?!这都是我后来揣摩出的。你说好玩不好玩?I hadn't minded that he was poor, but he started to mind my poverty. It's strange.
I analyzed it; he finally broke up with me because of the money reason. My parents are those who care about eating and dressing a bit, so they always dress up nicely when they go out, as if we were rich. But actually, we're just an ordinary working-class family with no savings, neither too poor nor too rich; they just like to dress well.
We can afford it too. I'm willing for them to enjoy their life; there's no need to stop them. But my ex-boyfriend criticized my parents a lot. He would criticize their habits all the time, and later I realized that he hated them spending money on themselves instead of saving for me.
You say he has the right? Does anyone have the right to control how others spend their money? So I think now that his standard is probably just one word: money. Absolutely looking for someone with money.
But who knows if he really has such luck? Anyway, it's unlucky for me that day. One hundred men cannot have such vanity and greedness; however, fate made him mine anyway! So he couldn't tell me why we broke up either.
It was difficult for him to say because it would be embarrassing if people knew his real reasons - not wanting someone without wealth in marriage! That night when I begged his mother after our break-up... We had been together for two years and half already!
The wedding banquet was even booked! Who knew why he changed his mind then? When returning home from Silang Park where we went together before parting ways again... He suddenly told me in a casual tone: "Li Wei," you should know by now - "we" should break up now."
My eyes widened in confusion - what did this mean? Wasn't this some kind of joke?! He wasn't serious at all; there was even a hint of self-mockery in his voice: "We aren't compatible at all," isn't breaking up logical?
Not only didn't make sense but also hurtful after investing 2 years & 6 months into our relationship including booking a wedding banquet! What do you think about this so-called compatibility or lack thereof?
Then came three hours of haggling over nothing as usual until ultimately agreeing on breaking off our engagement while I insisted on knowing valid reasons from him which never came forth leaving us both unsatisfied at best...
And then like clockwork following suit without any hesitation (as expected) left without waiting or giving any chance for resolution as per routine habitually practiced by most men...
As an emotional wreck lying down crying in despair upon witnessing another betrayal feeling utterly helpless yet still holding onto hope despite being heartbroken beyond measure...