我曾经在QQ空间上写下过一篇关于同时交往三个男友，高峰时期有五个追求者的日志，那时的我觉得自己拥有魅力，是值得骄傲的事，但我的父母却不这么看。他们担心我的行为会败坏了名声，不利于将来找到合适的伴侣。我感到迷惑，因为时代已经变迁，传统观念似乎与现代生活脱节。

回想起当年，我以为自己能够像古人那样遵循三从四德，但实际上，这样的束缚对现代女性来说显得太过陈旧和狭隘。然而，当我深入思考自己的选择和未来的规划时，我意识到那些传统道德其实是为了保护弱小，而作为一个女孩，我可能并不真正了解这些道德背后的意义。

我记得有一段时间，我同时爱着两个男人，一位是我高中同学，我们三年多的感情让我坚信他是那个可以托付一生的男人。而另一个人，则是在工作中遇到的，他主动向我表达爱意，让我感动。但当真相 gradually exposed, I realized that my actions were wrong and hurtful to both men. I knew I had to make a choice, but the pain of hurting one man while keeping the other made it difficult for me.

I decided to reject both men, fearing that if I stayed with one, my heart would still yearn for the other. The thought of potentially causing harm to another woman in their future relationships also weighed heavily on me. Though this decision may seem irrational or selfish, it was what felt right at the time.

Later on, my husband asked me and our third party simultaneously become pregnant. This revelation shook me deeply as it brought back memories of past infidelities and betrayals. However, after much contemplation and reflection, we decided to work through our issues together rather than resorting to drastic measures like divorce or abortion.

The experience taught me that even in times of great distress and confusion, love can be a powerful force for healing and growth. It is not always easy to navigate complex emotions or make decisions that align with societal expectations versus personal values. But ultimately, it is these choices that shape us into who we are today – flawed yet resilient individuals capable of change and redemption.

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